Sofia

Feeling ungrateful for being sad
I am mad at my thougths and the perspectiveof life
Feelings are irrational cutting my chest with a knife
Loneliness seems so close and desperate
I dont want to need you
I dont want you

Logic flies out the window
as does my mind everytime you claim me to be in the wrong
I know what you want
Bringing me unhappiness to make yourself feel alive
You hurt me to see if youre important
that you can have an affect on people

I thought you were something else
but you are pain and everything that follows
you're the excitement before a dangerous fall
you're the blood that run's from my wounds
the chock i am in when i realise what's happened

The fall doesnt take me anywhere
I got to jump for me and not for you
Confusing is the right word
Im Jekyll and Hyde
But never your bride

Future is forward and you are backward
The option I choose is up to me
If I want to bleed I know it's on my shoulders

Nobody but me can stop you
Stepping on me like I am a carpet
which you wipe your shoes on

I feel dirty and it's my own fault
I don't blame it on you
If I didnt let you it could never have been

I forgive myself
I forgive everybody that ever hurt me
Because I wan't to be alive
By healing myself and acknowledging my importance
I am important and so are you
Get off my carpet and get your own

I found what I was looking for
in the midst of the chaose
there was one person being still
and it was me

I am here, I am now and I am the future!