I hate that I let you down . . .

"Nobody's Perfect"


But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
Don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect, no

If I could turn back the hands of time
I swear I never would've crossed that line
I should of kept it between us
But, no, I went and told the whole world how I feel and oh

So I sit and I realize
With these tears falling from my eyes
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever
I promise that I'm gonna try

But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect

I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, oh
I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you, yeah

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect, no

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
So tell me you can forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect, yeah, yeah, whoa

Don't tell me, don't tell
Don't tell me you can't forgive me
No, no, no, no
'Cause nobody's perfect, no


Sweden, Part 1

Yes its been a while since writing here!

Quick update! I went to Sweden and then Murphy came and visited :) Some pictures!

Me and Pernilla picked Murphy up from the airport. Then we drove to my brothers place. Had a sleep because Murphy had been up all night since his flight was very early. After the rest we went to 'Pendeln' in to Gothenburg. We took the tram to Haga and went to a restaurant called 'sjobaren'. I do not like sea food but M loves it! I had some delicious pasta veggie and he had some pasta with shrimps. Yummie!




After this we had a look in the pittoresque shops in Haga. Then we took pendel again to Liseberg where we went up in Gothia tower in 23rd Heaven and had lovely drinks.




It was long and exciting day! We headed back to my brothers after the drink where he had made amazing dinner with moose steak and potatoes with lovely sauce. Unfortunately we enjoyed ourselves too much so we forgot to take pictures! The next day we went to Uddevalla, my hometown. We had a meal at Harrys. And we saw where I took acting classes for about eight years every week. And Murphy saw the school I went to when I was 15-18 (gymnasium), Agneberg. We took a drive to Gustafsberg by the water...







The best pictures of my darling :)













Mad for being sad

Feeling ungrateful for being sad
I am mad at my thougths and the perspectiveof life
Feelings are irrational cutting my chest with a knife
Loneliness seems so close and desperate
I dont want to need you
I dont want you

Logic flies out the window
as does my mind everytime you claim me to be in the wrong
I know what you want
Bringing me unhappiness to make yourself feel alive
You hurt me to see if youre important
that you can have an affect on people

I thought you were something else
but you are pain and everything that follows
you're the excitement before a dangerous fall
you're the blood that run's from my wounds
the chock i am in when i realise what's happened

The fall doesnt take me anywhere
I got to jump for me and not for you
Confusing is the right word
Im Jekyll and Hyde
But never your bride

Future is forward and you are backward
The option I choose is up to me
If I want to bleed I know it's on my shoulders

Nobody but me can stop you
Stepping on me like I am a carpet
which you wipe your shoes on

I feel dirty and it's my own fault
I don't blame it on you
If I didnt let you it could never have been

I forgive myself
I forgive everybody that ever hurt me
Because I wan't to be alive
By healing myself and acknowledging my importance
I am important and so are you
Get off my carpet and get your own

I found what I was looking for
in the midst of the chaose
there was one person being still
and it was me

I am here, I am now and I am the future!

Thanks for letting go

Didn't know what to say or do
wanted to say so much to you
mostly to get things off my mind

Too much drama, suffered pain
No fucking sunshine and I hate the rain
Always on my mind
An illusion of you that wasnt true

Im growing up taking responsibility
Seeing things for what they were

Reality is truth why would I suffer more pain with you?

Wihout you i am fine
you made me sick constantly on my mind

Its not your fault though
I need to grow up it shows

Connection was crazy but not true
you could never do it the hard way
Where there was two you only saw you

So much to say to you but mostly to myself
But in the end of the day...

The words arent enough and I'll let it be
Thank you for letting go of me


What I should do

I should erase his number and change mine too
he can be cold and wont even be true
Why should I have him in my life and hope for something
because of us there is really left nothing
he tries to tell me how it is, like im the one in wrong
he puts a scarf before my eyes and tell me even more lies
all so he can put me aside, to sit and dwell while hes with a new bride
I mourn and I cry, but not too loud, he couldnt hear it even if he tried
Im wondering why should I care, how come i must this pain bear
I carry it heavy but my pride he takes
leaves makes me think i did all the mistakes

God came into my life told me it will be alright
you and him were not meant to be
he goes the other direction cant u see
It wasnt love you shared I never approved
and when I read his words I know its true
It is patient and kind and not easily angered
it keeps no record of wrongs
I understand now that it wasnt love we shared

All the anger you showed me and all the impatience I gave you
But does the realisation help me?
Does it help me to get over this
Unhealthy obsession of thinking I need you

God loves me and he will help me through this
Every day he walks next to me
wherever I am there he is
my saviour, my creator
I will let him help me mend
I love God!

Words without reasons

Like it all went so fast
confusion in my mind
will it last

Im trying to understand
all the things I left behind
or the one who left me deserted
it hurt like hell burt still I came through

now to live shattered in this world without you
it makes me confused
it feels like im about to loose
I don't know what but something will happen

He came into my life without an invitation
you left my side without a proper goodbye
and now Im happy for the words without reasons
the email you sent me without meaning
the words you wrote trying to comfort me
who were you trying to fool

no fool, not your fool

HE opened up my heart
and now Im bleeding
from the wounds you gave me
from the love I feel for him

It's blood all over the floor
Knock knock whoose on the door
Not you but HIM

He gives me love and trust
hell yeah even lust
You wasn't man enough for me
you said it with your own words...
Words without reasons
without meaning
without Love

YOU ARE NOTHING

image253

Loosing you

HEATHER HEADLEY LYRICS

"Losing You"

[Verse 1:]
I used to think that you were heaven sent
Cause you appeared to be the perfect gentleman.
You would open doors and make those daily calls
Just to check and see if I needed anything at all.
You used to be concerned
Then things changed suddenly,
And when something went wrong
You were never there to see.
When I would tell you that I need comforting
You would tell me you were kickin' it with "Ray and them."

[Chorus]
Losing you had to be
The best thing that ever happened to me
Even though I cried a little
And I tried a little
I learned what a good woman really needs
Losing you had to be,
The best thing that ever happened to me
Now that I'm over the pain
I found love again.
With a man that makes me so happy

[Verse 2:]
You would get mad at me over stupid things
Now why would I be going through the pockets of your Jeans?
I had suspicions and I felt something was goin' on
You blame me for cheatin'
But it was you doin' something wrong.
They say that guilt will break ya down,
And lately you've been calling, but it's too late now.
And I just wanna' thank you for leaving when you did
'Cause I never woulda' fell in love with him.

[Bridge:]
Thank you for the silly arguments
You made me realize
And the times you tried to kill my self-confidence
Now I know the reasons why
I appreciate you leaving me when you did
Cause you made me understand
Cause I never woulda' saw the great man that I found in him


Heather Headley!                              http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lATq7-yzSCE&mode=related&search=

Tired but moving on

Tired of my tears
I want God to release my fears
Make my teardrops stop
I had enough already
It is not the pain
It is all about the shame
I've done the same

I know how it is like
To be lost and nowhere to go
Which shoulder should I cry on
Wanted to cry on yours
But that shoulder is forbidden
Sorrow is far away hidden

I don't wan't to hate you
I just can't
It makes me sick
That the one you loved
he doesn't love you back any more

There wasn't a good ending for us
But I'm thankful
Thankful for the decision you made
It was caring of you
To finally speak the truth

I wish I could have had one more day
See you aks you if you are ok
You could be hurting too
But I want to let you know
You was the best thing that could happen

To have someone and for once feel loved
you gave me that
Never think you gave me nothing
You gave me the biggest gift of all

Understand dear friend
Even though it had to end
The story in my heart will keep writing
Until the tears starts drying

She deserves good things
He deserves them too
They will hear the words again
I love you
Seperate or together
With someone else
Within our heart lies the secret
whispering please don't give up
Love will come your way

Sofflan


Forgiving

Jojo "the highroad"


I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave everything that I had
But ya left me in the cold

But still I have faith
Somehow I believe
That if I keep love in my heart
It will find it's way to me

I could fight
Seek revenge
But thats not who I am
No I'm not giving in
I will rise above

I'm gonna keep walking
Though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching
When life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I'm gonna keep climbing
Till I see the top
I'm gonna keep trying
Though I may get lost
Not gonna let you bring me down
I take the high road

This pain that I feel
I will overcome
I know somewhere deep down inside
It's the pain that makes us strong
I could curse
I could shout
Take the easy way out
I forgive you
somehow I will rise above

 
Real Love lasts forever

Heartbroken and confused, but alive!

Jahopp... så var man s  i  n   g e l. Igen. Shitt trodde aldrig det, Kom som en smäll på käften faktikst.. Han tyckte inte det funka längre. Tyckte min kärlek växte mer än hans. Jaha. Ska man sluta ge så mycket av sig själv i framtiden då? Hell no.... JAg är fortfarande samma tjej, samma soffla. Jag är fan rolig, bäst och världens snällaste. Jag är så jävla bra. FAn hans eget misstag. Det var la bäst det som skedde. Funkar det inte så gör det väl inte det. Så chockad bara. HAr man gett så mycket av sig själv så. Tårar*

Kämpa vidare... I'm a fighter. Folk har sårat men jag finns ju kvar. De kan såra allt de vill jag tänker fortsätta bli kär och hoppas. Alltid hoppas. Tro, hopp och kärlek. Men kompisarna är trots allt viktigast och självklart familjen! I love you... Om det inte vore för er hade jag inte varit den jag är. Karri tack för talket. Thanks my brother.


It's the chance of life, get ready, set, fly high.
Above the fear of your mind, go for it.
It's hit or miss, too late for you to quit.
You gotta show 'em how bad you really want this, so...

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the green, on your hopes you must lean
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...

Are what you believe, you got to bring the dreams.
Set the pace, competitions take the lead.
This is it, all eyes on you.
So stay on point and prove,
that you deserve whats long overdue.

My heart is still recovering,
From the heartbreak of another kind,
I'm still drying my tears.
Getting over my own fears in my life.
So I wanna make sure this time that I'm strong enough,
To give it my all...
image81
My family is the best....... Brorsan o syrran. Alltid där när de behövs =)

Working

Idag har jag arbetat

13.15-21.45... Det gick bra. Lärde mig mer idag. Imorgon ska jag jobba 07.00-15.30. Jag borde sova nu men kan typ inte, får ta igen mig imorrn på dagen istället. Jag har gjort en rolig grejj med min pojkvän och mig förresten tihi i think it is funny... =)

image29


In London

Dag 3

Japp... sa kan det ga. Sitter i cedrics lagenhet. Den ratt fin faktiskt. synd att hans brorsa ska bo har med sen for det kommer bli lite trangt. Igar var vi i en park o hade picknick lite... fan vad mkt folk det var dar. Oh det var en sa sot liten kille kan inte varit mer an tre ar... han sprang runt och spela fotboll, han va jattedukkti.. hhhaha.... Massa pittbullar dar dock, me not like. Sedan var vi ute o sprang igar kvall skont... sen gjorde vi massa situps... det e mkt roligare nar man tranar o e tva. Idag ska vi till Brent Cross och sen pa kvallen ska vi pa tivoli! Yeyyy. Nu gor Cedric frukost till oss ;) Nu far jag kla pa mei. Tror jag ska ta kjol for det ar sa fint vader... mmm... Bye bye dara.

image13

I am the one I was

Jag har gjort ett test på ngn sida som heter http://quiz.myyearbook.com/zenhex/quizresult.php  Och jag den jag ville mest!Jag vill bara säga att jag älskar mig själv. Jag är så himla rolig och jag trivs i mitt eget sällskap. 6 anledningar till varför jag trivs med att vara mig. 1.   Jag är snygg. Varje gng jag kollar mig i spegeln hittar jag alltid ngt jag tycker om. Visst alla har dåliga dagar men då behöver man inte springa till spegeln hela tiden då.2.   Jag är rolig. Jag är så rolig att jag skrattar åt mina egna skämt som jag försöker dra så ofta som möjliigt. 3.   Jag har empati för andra. Jag kan förstå andra men ibland börjar jag böla om jag ser ngt för sorligt och det krävs inte mycket! But at least I care!4.   När jag är trött på att vara trött då gör jag ngt! Jag förändrar min situation.5.   Jag vågar testa nya saker! Jag har flyttat till både frankrike och London. Men gjort massa grejjer, dumma och smarta =)6.   Att jag oftast är ärlig, kanske brutalt ibland but so? Visst man kan inte såra andra för mycket men jag orkar inte hålla på att trippa folk på tårna.  Fan va konstigt? nu när jag gjort en lista kan jag bara komma på mer grejjer jag tycker om hos mig sj! Fan va ballt. Jag utmanar alla som läser detta att göra det samma! Man mår så mycket bättre. Alla som inte gör det är whimps!
Carrie
You are the narrator of your clique. You seem to make sense of what you and your friends experience together and apply it to the larger world. You love people more than anything, well maybe not more than shoes, and although you admit to being very neurotic and a bit too spontaneous at times, you are grounded and have a very good heart. You are generous with your time and money, and maintain your youthful dream for prince charming.

image9

my boyfriend thinks i am :                    Min bästa kompis Karolin tycker att jag är: rolig, filosofisk och omtänksam
very ambitious

decisive

carring
sympathic
funny